Hey Gorgeous!
I’m Johanna & I’m thrilled to meet you!
When people ask me what my jam is, the answer is simple. “I’m all about sex.” Sexuality is THE thing that interests me the most. And it has played an integral part in my whole life and led me to where I am now – both personally and professionally.
Through my lived experience I’ve discovered that sexuality is rocket fuel that can empower my dreams, desires, high genius, heart and manifestations. It holds the biggest creative power there is on the planet as it literally creates life itself. My journey has taken me from sexual trauma into sexual power and I use the power to illuminate my life. It’s a force of nature, it’s life force energy, it is P U S S Y P O W E R .
My journey
In order to explain where I am today,
I feel the need to tell you the full story.
Bear with me, it’s on the long side,
but it’s worthwhile taking your time to read it.
Here we go…
Something I share with thousands of other women is that I experienced sexual trauma in my youth. I was raped at the age of 16. I didn’t grasp it then, that I had actually been raped, because I didn’t understand my response. As I didn’t scream, kick or fight, I thought that I in some way must have been okay with what had happened. The objective facts however - that I woke up after passing out to discover that a guy was on top of me with his cock in my vagina, told me that this was not something I had given my consent to. Nothing did I know about freeze trauma response and dissociation as a survival mechanism. My coping strategy for many years was to suppress the memories of the event, bury it deep and throw away the key. It wasn’t until years later, during the Me too-movement that I finally understood my response - or lack of.
Fast-forwarding a number of years. I’m married with a loving and kind man. After coming out on the other side of 2 x childbirth and breastfeeding our sex life is ignited. We have lots of sex, I enjoy sex, but I always have the feeling that I’m not so “womanly” in my sexuality. I only want to fuck but I can’t do tender love making. It puzzles me, but I don’t dig deeper to understand what’s beneath it. Honestly, I don’t even know where to start.
Sexual awakening
Fast-forwarding again, I am divorced and I am engaging in dating men and I am sexually exploring with women. (I will never forget the first time I have sex with a woman OMFG!!) It’s like a new world has opened up - a smörgårdsbord where I want to taste everything! My libido is high and I am eager to experiment. I have also begun my self development-journey.
One September morning I wake up and I suddenly see the world differently. I’ve had my spiritual awakening and I know in my bones that I am part of something bigger. The word “Tantra” starts to pop up here and there and everywhere and I’m drawn to finding out what it is.
I dive into Tantra and my initiation is bombastically mind-blowing. I receive my first ever yoni massage (transformational pussy massage de luxe) from an extremely present, mindful and skilled tantra masseur and those three hours changes my life. The pleasure I feel in my body and the orgasmic fireworks are beyond my wildest imagination. My energy body goes from half-asleep into fully awake and my kundalini gets activated. Wow!
Suddenly I can have full body energy orgasms where my whole body is shaking from the stimuli of eating strawberries with whipped cream. Crazy! I don’t even need sex to orgasm!!!
Sexual healing
With Tantra bodywork practices and teachings I also realize that I lack the ability to speak my sexual boundaries and that the rape 20 years ago disconnected my pussy from my heart, which explains the life long inability to feel deep intimacy when having sex. Simply, my heart has been wired to disconnect when pussy comes alive. I do lots of healing work and I discover so much pain in my pussy and my heart. It is challenging and hard but I suddenly get so much understanding of why my sexuality has been the way it has been. I am shocked to find out that my body and pussy has been storing so much trauma and pain for all these years, without me being aware of it.
I meet the love of my life and through exploring sexuality with him with my heart on board it is taking me on an even deeper healing journey. I learn what intimacy is for real!
PUSSYPOWER!
The best way I can describe the impact of the sexual energy activation is that I now have access to nuclear power within my body. At first it is almost overwhelming, and I don’t really know what to do with all of that potent fiery energy. I paint art, I make erotic photography, I dance ecstatically, I explore kink and BDSM, I go to Tantra festivals, I travel the world, I educate myself more within Tantra and I start to give Tantra sessions and facilitate workshops. The pleasure I feel in my body and all the fun I have playing with my sexual energy consumes me.
I realize that I can put my PUSSYPOWER into everything and anything I want to create and thereby charging my dreams and desires so they come alive. It’s a whole new way of living life!
I also discover that I need very little external stimulation to feel pleasure inside my body. My whole body feels super-alive and all of it is one giant erogenous zone. I am starting to practice mindfulness as an approach to pleasure. By staying very connected with my pussy I can elevate orgasmic pleasure inside my body through all my senses – I close my eyes and smell something delicious, I listen to a beautiful piece of music, or I simply just breath into my pussy and orgasmic waves of pleasures are rolling inside my body.
It is literally as if I have found the biggest or treasures and I feel that all of this is just too good to not share with the world. Not only do I want to show other women what is possible, I also feel that it is my responsibility!
My mission
In 2021 I study with Layla Martin at The Tantric Institute of Integrated Sexuality to become a certified Sex, Love & Relationship Coach. This is the most advanced sexuality training on the planet and it is absolutely phenomenal. Not only do I go through all embodiment practices and tools myself, giving me tremendous personal transformation, but I also get trained in holding an amazing trauma-informed safe coaching space for my clients.
In this training I learn and understand the deep layers within our sexuality and what can be unlocked when we dig deep. When we heal shame, self-hatred, unworthiness, conditioning, trauma and limiting beliefs. When we go beyond the shallow layers into the primal, raw, energetic, dark and shadow aspects of our sexuality… On this journey I discover within myself that when I bring those parts into the light, I liberate myself and can suddenly access so much more of my potent power.
I am here in service. I’m here to guide women in the process of sexual awakening and unleashing of their power. I cannot come up with anything that is more important than this. Literally!
Official trainings
2021 Sex, Love & Relationship Coach Certification from The Tantric Institute of Integrated Sexuality, online training
2019 Transformational Tantra Massage at The Paths of Transformation School, Manchester
2019 ISTA Level 1, Iceland
2019 ISTA Level 2, New York
In addition thereto numerous Tantra and breathwork workshops and retreats
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@johanna.kruusval
